Nurit Bat-Yaar in the 60sThe Circle of Life
My mom had been a very strong lady,
With an incredibly tough battle to fight,
Cancer is a formidable enemy,
She struggled with all her might,
Surgeries, chemo treatments, radiation,
Were among the weapons used,
Not least was my mom’s tough spirit,
She tried her best to carry on life,
As it was prior to this terrible disease,
However, the illness slowly took over,
More than her body could bear,
And she began to truly suffer…
Once my mom realized that the war,
Was one she could not win,
And all that lay in store for her,
Was more pain,
She wished for peace,
An end to the anguish.
While I reside thousands of miles away,
I was fortunate to have been alerted,
That things were taking a turn for the worse,
And to be with her during her final few weeks,
This time was both one of the most painful times,
In my life, as well as one of the most precious times…
She reached her moment of peace late 12.12.12,
And was laid to rest yesterday morning,
It is so hard to imagine life without her,
Many know her public and professional persona,
Hence the reason for the secrecy around her illness,
But to me, she was my beloved mom.
“Israel Fashion Art” Book by Nurit Bat-Yaar
Photo by Miri Davidovits
With whom, I had only become closer,
As the years went by,
While we did not always see eye to eye,
I always knew I could turn to her,
And share my joys, pains or sorrows,
And she would be there.
Now, what do I do?
Who do I talk to?
It is so hard to imagine life without my mom,
She was such an important part of my/our lives,
The selfish part of me wanted to hold onto her,
Tell her, don’t let go, stay here…
But I didn’t do this,
As I saw her wanting to let go,
I did the right thing,
I told her, that it’s ok,
You can go now,
We’ll be ok.
My mom deserved her peace,
To stop suffering,
She no longer had the strength,
To even open her eyes at the end,
But I was ever so grateful for her,
Being able to look at me, my son,
Through the tiny sliver of her eyes,
As we spoke to her,
Soothing her, telling her – all was ok,
That we were staying,
Not going anywhere,
Until she softly went to sleep…
December will now never be the same,
While I became an aunt last December,
My mom passed away this week.
From now on, this month will always,
Hold elements of happiness and sadness.
The circle of life…
Also, please feel free to share your thoughts below. I love hearing from you 🙂
Dorlee, I am so sorry for your loss. I am keeping you in my thoughts during this difficult time. May her memory be a blessing.
Linda
Dorlee, I am so sorry for your loss. I know you have been there for your mom and I can tell how grateful you are to have been there at her final days, moments. You and your loved ones will be in my prayers and please know that I am here to help in any way I can.
Dorlee,
I too am so sorry for your loss. Your touching account and tribute to your mom’s passing was wonderful to read and I could feel your pain. My dad passed away this week 3 years ago and I so clearly remember the pain and emptiness.
Faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of these is love! Corin. 13
Dear Dorlee,
I’m sharing tears with you. This is such a beautiful tribute to your mom.
Death is never easy, but you have shown great courage and growth.
Even while death darkens the door, healing begins. That was my experience, too.
You and your family are in my thoughts.
Warm hugs,
Marianna
Dear Dorlee,
Your heartfelt eloquence in describing your mom’s battle with cancer is gripping. I can only imagine what your mom, and you, have endured, during these many months.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. Your intimate last moments with your mom sound so peaceful and soothing. I’m sure she is ever-grateful for your love and caring throughout her life, and through to the end of her earthly presence. I sense she will be forever present in your heart and soul.
Rob and I offer our warmest condolences to you and your family during this difficult time.
Warmly,
Jacqui and Rob
What a lovely soul you mother will continue to be. Keep talking to her. She’s listening, and the advice she would render, lives on in you.
Dorlee,
I’m sorry to hear of your loss. This post is a wonderful tribute to your mom and a poignant reminder why the fight against this disease must continue to be pursued with great vigor.
My condolences to you and your family.
Rick
What a powerful tribute, both to your mother and to your own grief. I’m so sorry, and I’m so grateful (for you and for her) that you could be with her through the days before she died.
In my own times of grieving the loss of loved ones, I have discovered (much to my surprise) that my relationship with them continues beyond death. I continue to talk to them in my heart and have even written them letters. And so over time, our relationship continued to grow and change. I share this with you so, if and when the time is right, you might decide to explore this process to see if it fits for you.
Hugs, love and prayers, Nancy
Dear Dorlee,
You have honored your mother’s memory with your eloquent words. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family in your time of grief.
Hugs,
Andrea
Thanks so much, Linda, Sharon, Hannah, Marianna, Jacqui, Anne, Rick, Nancy and Andrea for your kind and thoughtful support during this difficult time.
Dear Dorlee,
I had been thinking of you and logged on to your blog to catch up when I read your most recent post. I am so sorry that you you and your family are going through this terrible loss. Please accept my deepest sympathy. I will be sending you and your family my prayers and love. Please let me know if I can do anything to help you during this difficult times. I am thinking of you during these difficult days ahead. With much love, Laurel
Thanks so much, Laurel,
I most appreciate your condolences and kind offer of help during this time. I am having a rather difficult time… I will be posting shortly a new poem expressing some of my feelings.
With much love,
Dorlee
Dorlee, I am so sorry for your loss. I had wondered if something was wrong as I noticed you dissappeared from social media for a while in Dec.
You are an amazing person and I am sure your mother was very proud of you.
Holding you in healing thoughts during this difficult time.
Hi Lesa,
Thanks so much for your very kind words of support 🙂
Warmly,
Dorlee